"Walk with me"

Okay, so my flesh is weak!  I'm not sure if this is normal for people going through adoption, but I'm going to be honest and put my confession out there.  I have been struggling with thoughts of "Is this really going to happen?"  My mind is plagued with what if's, doubts and fears of this adoption actually happening.  I heard on the radio THIS MORNING that fear is cancer to the mind.  It was like God was sending me a message.  Then in my quiet time with Him I confessed my fears and doubts (as if He didn't already know).  His answer was "Walk with me".  There was no promise that it will be easy or that the adoption will happen on my timeline.  When I really think about having it "my way", it scares me!  I asked God to encourage me through His word and this is what He showed me in Numbers 23:19

God is not human, that he should lie,

not a human being, that he should change his mind.

Does he speak and then not act?

Does he promise and not fulfill? 

How easily my human mind forgets all of His faithfulness!  I am clinging to this verse and pray that I will become more like Him.  I'm praying that I will be faithful in walking with Him!!!  Happy Thanksgiving to all! 

Next home study (#3) is December 6th!

Angels Among Us

We got our fingerprints back and CAN forms from Alabama.  Still waiting on Georgia, Oklahoma and Colorado.  I am done with the required readings!!!  We have our second home study tomorrow. 

I am amazed at how I see God in the finest details of our adoption process.  I've been reading in Genesis about the servant finding a wife for Isaac and the specific details that went into this process.  The goal was clearly defined and specific prayers were asked for the journey to succeed.  Genesis 24:40...'The Lord, before whom I have walked faithfully, will send his angel with you and make your journey a success, so that you can get a wife for my son...'  I am comforted by that verse that God will send his angel with us and make our journey a success. 

God has proven His faithfulness repeatedly by answering those unspoken requests of my heart.  He knows my need and provides.  We've been blessed by God using His people to speak encouragement into our lives.  He has sent lots of angels to make this journey a success!

Home Study #1

We had our first home study and home tour today.  We got to share about our relationship, how we met, strengths, weaknesses...  It was actually quite nice to hear and be reminded of how much our love has grown in our 13 years of marriage.  We have seen that as we grow in our faith with God, He has drawn us closer to each other.  Loved our social worker.  We felt comfortable with her immediately!  What an answer to a prayer!  Thanks to all who prayed for us today.  God answered in an immediate and profound way.  He is so GOOD!  Next, we must submit our autobiographies and then schedule our second visit.  I'm done, waiting patiently on Jon to do his ;-)! 

Medicals

This week we had our medical forms completed and TB test.  I finished Hague online module training, and Jon is halfway done!  Still reading, reading, reading.  We are preparing for our first Home Study visit next week.  Praying for God's perfect timing and plan.

Paperwork!!!

We had to get CAN forms sent off to Georgia, Oklahoma and Colorado this week.  Took medical form to pediatrician for verification that our children are up to date on immunizations and "healthy".  Lots of reading and on line Hague training.  It makes me thankful that I am a stay at home mother!  God has given me a peace in this process.  I like things done on my timeline, and I am clinging to Him for continued peace.  His ways are perfect!

Fingerprints

Jon and I went to get our fingerprints done at the police station today.  Putting them in mail tomorrow along with CAN forms.  Praying for God to bless every step of this process.  Continuing to ask for His guidance and provision.

He Goes Before Us

We have officially answered the call!  God has called our family to adopt!!!  We submitted our application 9/25 and are excited to add to our family!  God has been so good to us by answering our prayers so quickly.  He has put people in our path that have guided us thus far and we trust that He will continue to provide.  He goes before us, and He has sent others before us.  What comfort that brings knowing that He is taking this long journey with us.  We know the journey has just begun!  I have been blessed by reading so many blogs of families that have gone before us to China and this blog is to encourage others to answer the call.  Oh, and to provide an account of our excitement for our newest family member!  So, please join us in prayer as we follow Him!