So, I wait...for so many things. I wait for forms to be returned that we sent off 3 months ago. I wait for the reference letters to be written from family and doctors. I wait for the home study to be finalized so we can submit it. I wait for the next step in what seems to be a forever process. I wait for my child. I have no control over the timeline, even though I have a great one all mapped out in my head! It seems that my routine is I hurry up and complete a form and then wait. Rinse and repeat... If God would just show me His timeline, things would be so much better! Or would they? If I knew when this all would happen, would I seek Him? Would I cry out to Him? Would I depend on Him? Would I try to change His mind and beg Him to speed it up? Would I grumble and complain? Oh wait, that's exactly what I'm doing right now! Although I have no control over the timing of how this story plays out, I do have control over how I respond to the wait. I can grumble my time away or I can trust that His timing is perfect! I say it over and over, but am I just talking the talk? I know that God is having us wait for a reason...more like lots of reasons. This is the time to strengthen my relationship with my husband, daughter and son. It's a time to pour into those relationships so that we can pour out on our new son/daughter. It's time to ask God to prepare our hearts for this new child and them for us. It's a time to grow in His word, as I'm sure we will need it with the upcoming struggles we will face. It's a time to be quiet and listen to His voice, so I will know it distinctly from all the other voices in my head (yes, I'm a bit crazy!). It's a time to focus on someone/something other than ourselves and our situation. It's a time to ask God to show me a new way to pray. So, I wait...
LORD, help me learn your ways.
Show me how you want me to live.
5 Guide me and teach me your truths.
You are my God, my Savior.
You are the one I have been waiting for.
